Don’t worry, I ate as much as my nutritionist told me too. It’s just I don’t trust my hunger cues at all. I can’t tell when I’m hungry or when I’m full which makes it stressful to eat when I don’t have the “excuse” of gaining anymore. I know that it will get better with practice, but I’ve been either losing or gaining for so long that it’s hard to just maintain.

And disclaimer: I’m still super happy that I’m at my goal weight, don’t get my wrong. I want to maintain, it’s just the stupid eating disorder voice that is telling me I can’t possibly eat this much and not gain. I just have to prove to myself that that’s not true.